Any of you who have been around me in the last few months know that as much as I try to stay balance I am consumed by my trip to Africa. Last January I was looking into Mercy Ships. After an unfortunate bout with sea sickness that was out of the picture, but Africa remained. I began to pray for the people of Africa. I prayed for their hearts and their hurt and sadness and brokeness but I also prayed for joy and encouragement! As I prayed I became more and more drawn to go. As many of you know I looked into AIM and foudnt he trip I am going on.
SInce being accepted to go I have been reading all the blogs of past teams who have gone as well as ones there now and my heart has completely broken for the people of Swaziland! My heart aches for them. I go to sleep excited and anticipating being able to hold a child, show them someone cares and wants them here. Show them they are not forgotten. They are loved! They are beautiful! As I write with tears streaming down my face I am realizing that I can't remember ever being more excited to do something or be a part of something! God is already changing my heart.
I know I have shared with Mikeah and Shannon a little of how I have been praying. For about a month now I have had a stirring in my spirit. God is challenging and moving in me. I no longer desire the perfect pottery barn house with my Gap/Oldnavy clothed kids. I desire to follow Him wherever that leads me!
So what am I here for? I don't know what my career will be or who I will marry or where I will live, but does that even matter? In the large scheme of things isn't my purpose, this things that I try to find on my own, sitting right in front of my face. My purpose is in HIM! It is Love!
